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This past year or so has thrown more at me than most get in their lifetime, but those moments or things don't define my life. My Mom has encouraged me to find the things that are actually going right in my life and being thankful for them. Today I have chosen to look past and ignore negativity. It feels nice. It's not always the easiest thing to do, but today I'm willing and able.

I am thankful that I was able to kill a bug last night, otherwise I wouldn't have slept..
I am thankful for good grades that God has blessed me with thus far.
I am thankful for the nice gestures from friends that mean more than they know.
I am thankful for the support and love my family has showered on me, especially this past week.
I am thankful that I'm able to go to school and pursue a career of my choice.
I am thankful for the gift of music and the impact it has on me. I love to worship.
I am thankful for a very well working air conditioning system in my home. This heat is torture.
I am thankful for a working car that I get to drive at my will.
I am thankful for the genuinely nice people in this world.
I am thankful for warm food.
I am thankful for God's provision, grace, mercy and LOVE.

AHH God is so amazing. He is teaching me something new all the time and I love it!
He knows my heart and desires and He satisfies those when He thinks it's right. I am learning patience right now and it is AWESOME! I am so incredibly blessed beyond words. Just saying that doesn't even begin to describe what I feel. I am so ecstatic right now, my life just keeps getting new beginnings in different aspects and I am feeling refreshed by the Holy Spirit by the way He's moving things around for me right now.

pray for me pray for me PRAY FOR ME        
Whatever is on your heart, ready, set , GO <3


Love you all !

My first day of school was perfect! More because of the activities after school, but school wasn't too bad. I'm hoping this will be a chill semester since I got most of my boring classes out of the way last year / this summer.
It will be interesting to see how this year unfolds! Praying for all of us who are fighting the good fight to go out and be a light to the people we come in contact with at school this year.

I am a blessed girl and I have the best boyfriend ever, I will just say that.
He makes me very happy. HE STARTS COLLEGE TOMORROW , which is so so weird.

But yeah! My first day of school was pretty eventful. Already got some work to do, but I'll make it.

Hope everyone has a great week!

Short little blog, but I've made it 4 days and I'm still alive haha. They've been really tough though.
THANK YOU to all of the people who have been speaking encouragement over me and have been praying, sending facebook posts/ messages and text messages with sweet words, Bible verses and advice from experience. I appreciate you all so much and will continue to need to be fed positivity.
I finally got to see his face via skype today, so that was nice and helped a little.

I miss him lots, but know he's having fun in Austin with his friends.
Thank you again to the people who have been there for me these past few days!
Much love.

Oh boy, where to be begin. I have been awaiting/dreading this day for as long as I can remember, and it will be a night I won't ever forget. Tonight was my last night with Ben as residents of the same city. Going into this night I had the wrong mindset, wrong attitude, wrong everything but God knew the intentions in my heart and let them start to come out in my actions. "This is probably going to the bottom of the list of nights spent together" was probably the understatement of eternity, but strange enough there are moments of today I would not trade for absolutely anything.
A new chapter starts today [yes today, because it is almost 2am and why yes I do have to get up early for work in the morning.. somebody feel free to bring me caffeine to work] I have so many things going on in my head about it.

I won't go through every detail like I usually do, just believe me when I say it was special. Lovely dinner, messy dessert and surprise by sprinklers.. and one heck of a goodbye shared by two people who mean a lot to one another.

For those of you who texted me tonight, thank you so much. This situation doesn't seem like a big deal, but there's a lot more detail that goes into it than people know and encouragement means so much.

Ben and I are so blessed. With our faith and with eachother. Although the night started out rough [and it ended rough too, believe me] I left with a peace only God could give because everyone knows this situation sucks. I left with tears in my eyes and a full heart. I know the Lord will have His way in this relationship of two kids who love eachother in ways nobody will understand. The Lord's will, not ours, be done. -Easier said than done, but I know God's plan is far better than what Ben and I think we have figured out for ourselves. It will be crazy to see what happens this year. The Father is working in ways I don't understand at this point in time, only He knows the end result.

Prayer warrior friends. Please pray for me, as an individual needing strength and for Ben&I opening our eyes to the paths the Lord has set out for us!

Let's do this thing.

"We are emotional people.  There is something about music and worship that just evokes something that is deep in our spirits.  It just moves our emotions.  We are emotional and God knows that." - Kari Jobe


My Kari Jobe stalking of the week has proved to be useful today.. hah.
I feel like I'm in such a weird place right now. In life, in relationships, in emotions. Nobody understands, not trying to be emo haha but nobody does! It's truth. I'm to the point where I don't even know why I feel what I feel. I just sat here and listened to song upon song about Jesus and I started listening to one in particular , I was looking at pictures of my Nonni / watching the SYTYCD finale / staring at my phone / thinking about life and BOOM like the emotional person I have began to become I lost it. I have heard this song more times than you could imagine, why it just smacked me in the face today after years of listening to it .. I have no idea.

I've come to realize that I can tell myself that the world has nothing for me, nobody will ever love me like my Heavenly Father and try to be ok with it but even after telling myself that a thousand times it still seems so out of reach and unfathomable ... BECAUSE IT IS! I will never understand His love, but it's there and I'm in awe of it. Absolutely IN.AWE. and I know people say it all the time but I haven't even experienced a slight glimpse of what is to come. I am SO THIRSTY for God, His presence and His love. 


Thank You Lord for for giving me emotions [no matter how annoying they can be and how complicated they make things] and for speaking to me through music. 
THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME LIKE YOU DO. 

Last full day in South Carolina :(
This morning I went for a school tour at NGU, it was beautiful. Everybody I've talked to knows that I keep freaking out because it's so green here and the trees are different. I just love it. The school is up in the mountains and it just seems like a really cool school; scenery and all, so we'll pray about that one haha still gna look around a bit, but I'm glad I finally got to see the campus cause now I know what to expect. Good stuff good stuff.

It has been an eventful few days for sure, this is the most exciting trip we've had here I think haha probably because of the baby :) we're so tight he throws up and poops on me, it's really cute.I'm sad to be leaving them but I'm going to have stuff to do when I get back home, so hopefully that will be good! I'll try to update more when I get home, but life isn't that exciting haha.        

Pray for safe travels! I'll see everyone back at home soon <3

Ahh crazy past few days. Wednesday I woke up early for work, and then got to hangout with some people who work up at the church too before I headed out so that was fun. Then I got home and got ready for the night aka; KE$HA/ LMFAO concert. SO EXCITED. We bought like 4th row tickets originally and ended up sitting in the front row at the concert, so legit and so much fun. We dressed up like Ke$ha [as you can tell] .

 Friday was date night with Ben. We went downtown and roamed around, apparently there was like some anime convention or something .. we felt left out because we didn't get the memo that everyone was wearing costumes on the RiverWalk that night but it's whatever. We ended up eating some yummy Italian food on the River and people watched / listened to Selena songs be played on wooden whistles. So special hahahaha. After dinner we walked around and ended up at the Tower Of The Americas where we took a bazillion photos and listened to some random band. But it was a fun night most def. I'm sort of spoiled.

Saturday morning Dad, Julia and I got up early and got on a flight to South Carolina where my mom, older sister, brother in law, and NEPHEW were awaiting. I may be biased, but I think this kid is the cutest thing. I say that as I'm currently watch him sleep in his little swing .. agh adorable. Last night we got acquainted with one another and we fell in love. 8lbs 11oz and beautiful blue eyes. <3 This morning after listening to a baby cry all night [Which I surprisingly didn't mind] I got to sleep in and wake up to a yummy breakfast. Then it was time to play! We pulled out little Caiden's play mat and after he got bored the waterworks began so of course I had to pick the little guy up and we had a nice little walk around the house, sang a few songs .. ya know.  Basically, I'm obsessed with the kid. I'm sure I'll be posting some more photos cause I've taken a bajillion.

Prayers for baby Caiden are welcomed, and of course my family is still missing my Nonni so prayer for for our family, especially my Grandaddy would be wonderful too! Thank you to everyone who has continued to message/ check on our family, yall are the sweetest!

Love you all. xoxo

Caiden James Patrick

Today is my little Nephew's due date.
He has yet to arrive,we're all so anxious to meet him. He's going to be the cutest little boy EVER. He has the cutest parents [and Aunt .. just kidding hehe] so he's got the genes. He's going to be a professional golfer like his daddy I'm sure. This kid will have plenty of people to spoil him, me being one of them.

To Caiden ;

You have been lifted up in prayer since before you were born. God is still forming you as we speak, I can't wait to see you when He is ready to share you with the world. Of all the things God has made on this earth, He loves you the most! I know your parents already love you lots , just wait till they meet you!
I pray that you would grow up to be a warrior. I know you'll become the man God wants you to be and I pray that you're an example to the men around you of how a Godly man should be. Can't wait to see what kind of person you become. - I don't know what I'm going to do with myself, you're going to be the first boy in the family on your Mama's side so we're all excited to see what happens. I hope you like dancing because your Pinky, Mommy and Aunts sure do! So you'll be getting a good fill of that. Have no fear, I will gladly do some boy things with you when we hangout.    


That being said, COME ON CAIDEN!
Come on out so we can play when I come visit you in a few days.I love you !