I don't really write on here much anymore, but my heart is hurting this morning. I woke up to find that one of my high school team-mate's and fellow daughter of a breast cancer fighter's mom passed away last night.  It's sort of surreal because this woman was one of the reasons that sparked my heart for breast cancer fighters, it's sort of a cool story.  If none of you know, breast cancer has been hereditary in my family. My Grandma passed away from it when I was young, so I didn't really understand much then.   In high school I met Amy. We danced together and she was the sweetest girl. One day I found out that her mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. Something tugged on my heart and I got a group of my friends together and we went out and bought a bucket and filled it with everything pink that we could find and we gave it to Amy and her mom. - That was just the beginning. My senior year MY mom was diagnosed. Amy came running to my rescue and would constantly send me messages checking on my mom and one of my childhood friends who also fought cancer. She would even send me encouraging words to lift my spirits.   Amy's mom has been fighting for so long, and she has been fighting so hard, I can just tell from the way Amy talks about her that she was going to put up a fight.She was strong. The Lord decided she had been through enough and He took her home last night to a place where CANCER IS NO MORE. I hate the feeling of loss and can't even imagine what the family is going through, but there is always the assurance of knowing that she is not suffering anymore and she is enjoying her new cancer free life, and for that I am thankful. Because cancer sucks.

Amy if you read this, I love you and I can't express how proud I am of you for being such an amazing support system for your mom and for other's like me.   Your story is going to touch hearts in ways you can't even imagine. We'll always have a different bond and I thank God for our friendship. <3

God seems to be slowly stripping pieces of my life away in order to help me find my identity. It's hard. It's really hard, but I am so ready for God to just show me His plan for me, even if it's little by little. I am praying that I am pursuing His righteousness above all else. I am distancing myself from some people and drawing nearer to others who I feel are good influences and/or sources of wisdom for me.
As far as what the Lord wants for my future, I feel like I am supposed to teach. The thing is I want to teach so many things, elementary school, dance, teach others about Jesus, reach out to special needs. MY HEART IS SO BIG ! How can I do all of these ? Am I supposed to choose just one? or two? LORD HELP ME! I know if I will draw near to Him He will draw near to me and make it clear. I'm praying for that.
Another thing, since I've been about 10 years old Africa has been on my heart. SINCE I WAS 10! I have yet to go, and even as I turn 20 in about 5 months [that's so weird..], my passion has not been extinguished. Praying the Lord shows me what I'm supposed to do with my sincere love for Africa and its people.

I know a lot of us in college are still in this position even as we're well into school, praying for all of us who earnestly seek Him for the best in our lives and wait on Him. BE BLESSED!

Had a nice little weekend in Austin. ^This is what I drooled over this morning. I love the sky, God gets so creative with it. I barely slept a wink last night, but getting to see this was perfect. It started my day off in a great way.    

Let's see.. Saturday was game day for UT so the town was covered in orange. I went tailgating and hungout with some friends. They are precious and are so good to me. We had some fun adventures together this weekend for sure.


After starting my day off wonderfully by witnessing such a wonderful sunrise over the earth, I went to church with Ben at The Austin Stone. Worship was good. There were a few lines here and there that touched my heart, THEN we got to the message and the Pastor seemed oddly familiar. Turns out he was a pastor both Ben and I had in middle school in San Antonio. SO weird haha. We got the chance to talk to him for a second and share our weird discovery which was cool. That added a fun little aspect to church today haha. After our totally bizarre encounter with our middle school pastor, we grabbed some yummmmy breakfast. Then I got to spend time with another Austin resident, miss kim carson and now I'm back in the home land haha. It was a nice little escape for a couple days.

KARI freaking JOBE

Well, if you know me at all you know about my seriously unhealthy obsession. If you don't know about it, you don't know me. Plain and simple. I talk about her or am singing one of her songs almost at all times. I stalk the chick like crazy, but you can't blame me because she's so cute, so talented and most importantly so ANOINTED.
I got to her concert 3 hours before it started to guarantee greatness [I'm telling you .. ob.sessed.] I met some really cool people that shared the same obsession haha  and who stood behind me in line. God's placement in exact points of time is amazing.   Soon I wasn't alone and I had some company. Mom stopped by for a sec and my fellow Kari Jobe lover and friend Taylor shared the experience with me last night.


Well we were right up against the stage and I seriously started freaking out. Kari laughed a few times at me and Taylor, I'm sure. I can't even begin to put into words what happened last night in that room because the way God moves is indescribable. I'm learning to embrace emotions during worship and I could feel it last night. After a few songs Kari spoke scripture over us, so cool. SO COOL.

From then on it was history. God came down and reminded me who He is. NOTHING is too big or impossible for my God. My life will never be steady, I'm going to get a lot of hard things thrown at me and right now in my difficulty I'm accepting a breakthrough, whatever the Lord wants that to be for me.    I am Yours, I am forever YOURS.
Worship was .. ugh. amazing. Absolutely incredible. It was so cool that so many young people in that room actually got the concept of worship. I love having a role model who loves Jesus. It's the greatest thing.

Back on my obsession.. haha some of you may know that I randomly like to embrace my hispanic heritage. Last night Kari started singing You Are For Me in spanish ... almost died. oh my word. aammaazzzinnngg. AH.
Then at the end [as promised on twitter] we were the first to hear her new single live. [Being the stalker I am .. I had already heard it before everyone else] so Kari starts singing her new single that like nobody has heard yet and I start singing the words .. what ? Yes, I'm a total creep.    Her guitarists probably had no idea what was going on when I started singing along. Kari didn't seem to think it was weird hahahaha. Oh, to make things even weirder, Taylor and I found out where she was after the concert and waited for her for like an hour, but we left before we got to see her which made me want to cry haha. BUT I will see her one day. Mark my words. It's hapennin :)              haha why am I so strange..
But really, we were so close last night and it was just an amazing night of worshiping the one who is worthy of all praise. I was blessed.